Have you ever had someone say, “Why can’t you just pick something you want to do”? This used to be a difficult question, but not anymore.
Before my medication, I used to freeze when I had to pick something to do in my personal life, such as what to watch, what to read, what to eat, or what to craft. I would become anxious because I couldn’t decide. The big dilemma was that I didn’t want the choice to be something I didn’t like because then it would be a waste of time, and I could have spent that time doing something else that was better.
You can imagine the amount of time wasted trying to decide. So, while saving myself from wasting time, I wasted time. It was so frustrating not only for me but also for those around me. Sometimes I think people assumed I was being difficult, but that wasn’t the case. Trust me, I was way more upset at myself than they were with me. I not only felt angry at myself for not being able to make a decision, but I also became angry with myself because I didn’t want to impact anyone else with my lack of decision-making. I felt like there was something wrong with me.
Thankfully my diagnosis helped me understand my lack of decision-making. It gave me insight into what was going on inside my head. Luckily my medication has helped immensely with my decision-making. Plus, conversations with those close to me about what is going on in my head have also helped.
For those out there who have trouble making decisions due to their ADHD, I get it. I understand the struggle and the frustration. You definitely aren’t alone when it comes to this.