Looks like I am back. Such is life with ADHD. There always ends up being breaks. Some breaks are shorter, and some breaks are months long. The perfectionist in me has been trying to figure out what to talk about or what if what I have to say doesn’t resonate with people, but in the end, that doesn’t matter. I am writing to capture my mind and journey living with ADHD.
It is hard for me to take breaks from things. Instead of being easy on myself and realizing that I don’t think like others, I am hard on myself. It is sometimes difficult to accept my brain for how it works. While other people can focus on a single hobby or interest, my brain is jumping all over the place.
Recently, I saw a post from someone who asked others with ADHD how they pick one hobby and stop focusing on multiple hobbies. I thought about how to answer that but realized the thought of only one hobby or main interest makes me feel anxious, almost like I would feel trapped if I had to pick one thing.
Want to know travel tips? I have you covered. Need to know what type of bird that is; I will happily tell you, then also tell you about its migratory patterns and what family they are in. Did you know blue jays are in the same family as crows? Have research you need done? I am here as long as the topic is interesting. Knitting, jewelry making, painting, reading, and drawing are all fun. It just depends on my mood, the season, and the cycle of the moon. Seriously though, I couldn’t tell you what makes me pick a thing to dive into on a given day. Sometimes, I need to relax, and certain hobbies allow me to do that. Other times, I have pent-up energy and need to do something more active. Sometimes, I am just bored and need to find something new to research.
The main thing I am working on now is not to be sad or feel like a failure when I haven’t pursued one of my hobbies or interests in a while. I have to accept it. I mean, hell, I can still do it. I haven’t failed at anything; my mind just needed a break from that hobby or interest. Those who know what I am talking about probably need to be easier on themselves. I know it is hard, but think of it as being knowledgeable in a number of things, and if you are doing things that make you happy or keep your brain engaged, that is great. There is so much out there. Who wouldn’t want to take in as much as they could?